God does everything so that I do not suffer – He runs to meet me, not waiting for my repentant pleas-confessions, seeks me, the lost one, humbly stands (does not break in, does not force – although unspeakably Lovingly-Divinely, with Divine Eros, He ardently desires us) at the door of the heart and knocks (with the ocean of Divine Love gently envelops me, and kindly, gently, humbly, like the last poor traveler, asks me for mercy – to let Him (Good, Happiness) under the roof of my soul), but I (absolute nothingness!) have the power to tell Him: Why did You come here?! I hate You! Go away! Crucify, crucify Him!.. Let us fear to offend, insult this unspeakable, defenseless Hypostatic Humble Love, this Eternal Child, which God has revealed to us as a Divine Personality. God punishes no one – God is Love! The terrible thing is not the punishment by God for crucifying (or crucifying) His Son (God is Love! He does not get angry, does not take revenge, does not punish… He Loves!), but the torments of hell – the torments (of conscience) from realizing (with all being) who we have offended – Him who Loves us beyond words, who has given us everything (everything we are and what we have – all creation and Uncreated! Everything that exists – this is a Gift from God the Father to me!!!) (including the power to crucify Him)! Glory to You, Indescribable Humility! Glory to You, Unspeakable Love! Glory to You, God, forever!
The fear of God is not a trembling before the coming torments, pains, sufferings, but a trembling, caution, vigilance, so as not to offend, not to insult the One who loves me so much (extreme nothingness, the last sinner, worse than all creation, a hellish being) Divinely, this Humble Defenseless Eternal Child (which is God), which is everything for me!!! With fear and trembling, work out your salvation! Take care of the fear of God, to receive from God this invaluable gift on the path of repentance. First, you need to fear God, and then, in due time, God will give strength to those who fear Him to Love Him (“I no longer fear God – I Love Him!”). Let us start with the fear of God, more precisely, with seeking the fear of God, taking care of the fear of God – attentive, discerning listening to the word of God, the deeds of God (for example, we dedicated to this (the word about God’s Providence: what was, is, and will be!) a whole “forty-year” journey through the desert of the thought “God will not allow!?”) and urging ourselves to repentance (changing thoughts, values, understanding of God, ways of salvation, etc. – and trying to live anew, according to the heard Word of God), and as repentance grows – the fear of God grows! The fear of God is not the result of realizing the torments of hell, cataclysms, wars, crimes, sorrow, pain, tears, but the fruit of knowing the Great Love of God, which manifests itself in all this (what was and is) (for example, the essence of the Passion Great Week, especially Great Friday – to show us, remind us how unspeakably God Loves us!!! The main theme of those days: not sin, not the malice of hell and its servants – people who do not know what they are doing, but the Unspeakable Saving Merciful Love of God for us (God-haters, God-killers!): “So God loved the world (each of us) that He gave His Son to terrible torments to hell…”)! Be vigilant! With fear and trembling, work out your salvation!
Let us also speak of the terrible delusion in which “Christians” (Jews who are waiting, expecting the coming of the antichrist) are: since the stars do not fall from the sky, the sun shines, the earth does not split under the feet of “Christians,” mountains (“the towers of Siloam”) do not fall on “Christians,” everything goes on as usual – they baptize and are baptized, confess and confess, partake and are partaken, perform the rites of the Sacraments, celebrate holidays and new moons, offer sacrifices bloodless and bloody… then, it means, everything is fine, God blesses “His people” (that is, “Christians”), is pleased with everything “Christians” do!? Listen to what the Holy Spirit says through the Christians: “The present heavens and earth, being preserved by the word of God, are reserved for fire until the day of judgment and destruction of ungodly men (especially ‘Christians’)… The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise (judgment and righteous retribution: both blessedness for the righteous and torment for sinners – each according to their deeds), but is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance… Therefore, consider the patience of our Lord as salvation, just as our beloved brother Paul also wrote to you according to the wisdom given to him!” (see 2 Pet. 3). Do not deceive yourselves, saying that because thunder and lightning do not fall from the sky on “Christians” (Satanists, heretics, sodomites…), everything is fine, God is pleased and blesses everything that happens in so-called “Orthodox churches” (“local,” “autocephalous,” “canonical,” with tomos and without…), that the synods, councils of the spiritual leaders of these synagogues do (all their heretical decisions and “traditions of the elders”) and millions of followers of these organizations (“pillars and foundations of all delusion”)!?